haiz... i guess im gonna break into pieces soon enough... i cant take all this anymore. my surroundings, my feelings, why cant i control them anymore. i am always confident not to let my feelings get the better of me but it seemed that now it has... looks like im trapped in my own world now... people sometimes just hate me for who i am, i guess? why is it always like this? make use, or use me as a sort of replacement, then push me one side to suffer? is my decisions all wrong? maybe i should stop listening to my self for a while, bcoz all the decision i make will be wrong and wrong. it would nvr be right? well, at least abit, but not MOST of the time. i'm sick of it alrd. im sick of living in this world of hatred, this world of loneliness, this world of Un-caringness if there is such a word. guess i gotta get myself out of all this crap ive been through... i've always wanted more time to get myself out but i guess, time is killing me and hurting me further and further. i gotta stop... i nvr wanted it to end, but haizzz... well, maybe my new song will sort off explain my situation i guess?

Wednesday.

went to esplanade to watch concert. but before that went to peninsula with Imran, azahari, syafiq, atikah and rianie. took plenty of pictures but still have not uploaded yet. next time kays? went to peninsula to buy new guitar string and take a look at the electric guitars. im so gonna get the one that i and amirul tested. it was well, amazing and nice sound. price check, 350. looks like i gotta start saving. amirul alrd saved that much in like 5 months time? damn fast!! concert was okae, kinda sleepy. so thats bout it...

Thursday.

came late for CCA and got punished. nvm. nothing much luh. at nite went to terawih then slacked with GH for a while. long time since i've seen them! haziqah, jom nyanyi duet!!!

Friday.

came late for cca again. then had maths class. 1st time i did'nt get targetted by the teacher. went prayers and here i am now in front of the com. going out soon to meet GH and present my song. hope they like it =P