Catch Me

Thursday, September 16, 2010 @ 9:32 PM

I performed this song before for my auditions. there's plenty of difference in his and my voice

Endless

Sunday, September 5, 2010 @ 12:01 AM

Looks like im writing again eh... Hmm... I dont know why... I feel so shitty nowadays. I want to let go everything inside, just that i dont know how to say it out and who to say it out to. I just wish, someone could just read through my mind, help me thru this shit and there goes my problems. My own problems are killing me now. Oh yea, you may say im thinking to much, but hey, if you were me, what would you do? Seriously... Im done with everything. Im not strong enough this time to face everything alone... I used to be, but, things just keep coming and coming till i cant take it any longer and fall. I dont know why no want wants to talk to me. I dont even know why i dont have friends. Maybe it was me who avoided them in the first place. I dont know, seriously. What's wrong with my life, i too do not know. My heart, it's like so numb now, so hurt, that it feels like im a living zombie, just wandering around, helpless, nothing to hang on or depend on... I dont wanna give up just yet, but... Im on the verge of doing so...

Saturday, September 4, 2010 @ 10:18 PM

All Girls Reject

@ 1:13 AM

The title sounds familiar right? HAHA. Its from 2 years back and i still stick to it coz nothing has improved since the past. Oh well... So yea, look at the time. I still cant sleep. So yea, im just gonna write about rejection.

So rejection. It always happens right? Sometimes, one just cant accept the other and thus this happens. Things like this do happen right? Maybe not only rejection from relationships with a partner, but even with friends too. So how does this happens? For me, i guess, maybe its because one cant accept the other for who they are. Or maybe, even someone cant spare time for the other in their lives. But, things do happen in live. Humans do makes mistakes. Who doesnt right? But sometimes, i do envy guys who can easily get a girl as and when they want. Oh well, maybe the time has not come for me yet...

Friday, September 3, 2010 @ 10:59 PM

Chemistry prelim paper today. and for the first time, i am able to do a chemistry paper. thank gosh i studied. went home and slept. woke up and went to friday prayers as usual. then went to meet bestie. teman her to buy things and talked about stuff. thank gosh she's okae now! heh, its gd to talk to bestie bout this kinda stuffs. well, she had to leave early coz kena paksa go somewhere. went home and continued sleeping. went to terawih at night and blah2.. i really dont know what to write now. oh well... oh yeah! i found out, i got blamed again for relationship problems! haha! standard nyer. im always blamed for this kinds of things. oh well, blame me all you want then(:

sometimes, i just wish, what happened did'nt not happen. but hey! accidents do happen right??(:

the used

Thursday, September 2, 2010 @ 11:21 PM

Guess my blog will be my new bestfriend, and will always be my friend after all... I dont know where to pour out my heart anymore. I had enough of keeping things to myself and suffer on my own... So im just gonna let it out here.

So it all started when i broke up with her. After that my parents fall sick. Then followed by me losing almost all my friends,including my bestfriends. Then exams are near. Then i met Natasha bestie, then im thrown responsibility in the house, then i met bestie's cousin. Then something happened during my prelim period. Gosh... Tell me, how do i wanna survive? With so many ppl despicing me, shoving me aside after they used me for whatever purpose they want... Sometimes, this world just seems so lonely to me. Its like im in the middle of a busy street, im lost, yet when i ask for help, ppl just keep moving. Im just left there t figure out on my own to navigate. Im not even myself lately. I feel so crappy, easily tired out and all. I know i have to persevere on till at least i complete my major exams. 2 more months. Its so close yet it seems so far. Its close coz i do feel the urge to study in this short the frame. Its far coz, its just filled with so many difficulties. I dont know how long i can hang on. I really wanna do well for my exams. I really want to get into the course i want, tourism or resort management. But all those seems so far from my reach... I wonder who else in such a state like me... Oh well... Listening to Shattered by Trading Yesterday. I find the song meaningful though... Oh well... Nights my friend...

Depressed

@ 11:05 PM

had physics paper today. Went to sch late. Oh well, who cares anyways. Paper was hard. Good for me. I guess im not gonna do well. Flunk my physics, which also means, i will flunk my sciences. Oh well. Well done to me. Reached home at 10am. Went to sleep till 3pm. Woke up with my whole body so sore and weak. Well, this is the effect of thinking too much i guess? Tried my best to study chemistry, but effort was to waste. Had no mood at all. I dont know why. Oh well... Fml...

Wednesday, September 1, 2010 @ 11:18 PM

just cried till my chest hurts... Gosh. Am i that weak? God, please help me. Hambamu sudah tidak kuat utk melawan cobaanmu.. Berikanlah aku kekuatan dan semangat ya allah..

List It All Out

@ 9:58 PM

I've decided to make a list of things i should'nt say and/or do to you from now onwards..

no more calling you dear
no more sweet words all the time
~~no more i miss you~~
no more goodnight hugs
no more saying i love you
no more saying i like you
no more pushing you too hard
no more sweet jokes
no more making you miserable
no more telling you so much of my problems
~~no more calling and speaking to you on the phone~~
~~no more thinking so much of you~~

there's just many more to list down... oh well...

~~i really want to do those things.. but i cant..~~

Unexpected

@ 9:50 PM

had a totally boring day today. just stayed at home, and studied at full blast. i dont even know what to do anymore. had no mood to do anything. im still kinda shocked at what happend in the morning but i guess im alright now. oh well. physics paper tmr. chemistry on friday. idk how im gonna survive, but i will find a way to survive..